Narrow Daylight…


Narrow Daylight

By Diana Krall

Narrow daylight entered my room
Shining hours were brief
Winter is over
Summer is near
Are we stronger than we believe?

I walked through halls of reputation
Among the infamous too
As the camera clings to the common thread
Beyond all vanity
Into a gaze to shoot you through

Is the kindness we count upon
Hidden in everyone?

I stepped out in a sunlit grove
Although deep down I wished it would rain
Washing away all the sadness and tears
That will never fall so heavily again

Is the kindness we count upon

 hidden in everyone

I stood there in the salt spray air
Felt wind sweeping over my face
I ran up through the rocks to the old
Wooden cross
It’s a place where I can find some peace

Narrow daylight entered my room
Shining hours were brief
Winter is over
Summer is near
Are we stronger than we believe?

Life on the other side of a life changing event can be like emerging from a cave. Diana Krall’s song gets it right, I think. The daylight is there, but it certainly is narrow. Really, the work has just begun after the darkness of pain and loss. Like walking through a sunlit grove of trees, the light flickers between varying degrees of shadow.  The path to the Cross is certainly the right way, but there is a hill to climb to get there, and it is sometimes steep. Yet in the shade of the Cross, there is peace… comfort… grace… love… 

And hope! 

Everyone living in the grief process wonders… How strong am I really? Can I dare trust myself to keep moving out of the cave and follow the narrow shaft of light leading me from winter to summer? Good days haunt with a taste that life is like it was, yet the shadow of loss stains the soul. We long for the rain to wash away our loss, rather than sunny days that remind us how nothing will ever be the same. The temptation is to stay hidden in the shadows, and honestly, remaining there to heal is needed for a time. But eventually, the shaft of light pierces the shadow, beconning us outward. 

Frankly,  the pathway of grief is strange for other people who haven’t traversed its steep, slippery slope. We wonder if other people think we should be done with it already. Certainly we ask ourselves that question. Dare we ignore the camera of public opinion in order to give ourselves the room we need to come into the light?

And still the narrow light beckons.

Summer is near…

Are we stronger than we believe?

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